Listening to my voicemail for the hundredth time confirms: yes, it’s the right number. His name is Tony and he wants to talk to me about my business Visa application.
That’s when the voices start and my head explodes.
I jot down answers to everything he could possibly ask. When my script is finished, I feel a little better. At least if I get tongue-tied I can look at my notes.
I make excuses for the next hour until I feel nauseous and disappointed in myself.
PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL.
I finally do it.
It ends up that Tony is very nice and helpful. I only needed to reference my script once, and overall I didn’t sound like a complete idiot. He even convinced the bank to approve me for over double the credit.
Fear Confessions is a series of essays by creatives who share personal stories about facing their fears. It’s a celebration of vulnerability.